Nine and a bit months!

This post is now eight days late.  I meant to write it last week, but if you read Friday’s post, you’ll know that the world has been conspiring against me.  It’s still conspiring, but I am ignoring it.  For the moment.

The reason there was a calendar date for this post?  Well – drum roll please – , it has now been nine months (and eight days) since the great Pog Shave off.  If you happen to be one of my lovely new followers (and there seem to be a fair few of you recently – thank you so much for signing up to my ramblings) you might be unaware of this.  The detail is all here, but to cut a long story short, I had a weird ‘thing’ called trichotillomania, where for 23 years I pulled my own hair out, even though I didn’t want to.  I did say it was weird.  I had managed to get myself to a stage where shaving it all off and getting a wig seemed like the only option.  So I did.  In April, Bradley (my wig) went into retirement and I started to let my hair grow.  And I…

Have.  Not.  Pulled.  Out.  ONE.  Hair.  Since.  :o)

I know there are people who read this blog who have the same ‘thing’, so just for a minute, I’m going to be sensible.

To start with, it wasn’t difficult (I had a completely shaved head – I had no option).  Then when it started growing back I got that itchy feeling under my scalp a lot.  The excitement of having hair was enough to ignore it though or I just slapped my head to stop the itching.  (I advise against doing that bit in public.)

When it was a fair bit longer and the grey ones grew back – and FAR more than I had before – I was desperate to pull them out.  The solution to that particular issue was to dye my hair.  Thank you Sisters 1 and 2 for all your dying expertise (I can’t do it on my own – it’s disastrous enough with two of us.)  One day we may even read the instructions.

But it’s the last few months that have been really tricky.  I can feel the naughty (curly) ones when I run my hands through my hair – if I’m stressed or just lost in thought – and they drive me mad.  I have to give myself a really good talking to so make sure I leave them just where they are, naughty or not.  It’s a bit like giving up smoking and carrying a packet of cigarettes around with you.  The habit is still there, they are still there and it takes serious will power not to give in.  I know, I gave up and even without that packet of cigarettes, I started again two years later.  Idiot.

And I have damaged my hair.  As well as the grey ones that are so plentiful I could be mistaken for a badger in my natural state, it’s not grown back evenly.  I have a thin patch right on the top, but I’m hoping that it only seems so obvious to me because I know it’s there (like that spot that always seems bigger to the spotee than someone looking at them).

So would I suggest this to anyone else?  If you were feeling how I felt in December last year, anything is worth a try.  It’s not as easy as it sounds though.  I took up crochet and now do that obsessively, and yoga, which I do badly.  But both are good distractions and work for me.  Hopefully I’ll be able to do a post at the end of the year and say that I’ve managed twelve months and never have to mention it again.

Until then, thank you to all the lovely people who know me personally and compliment me on my hair.  It does make me smiley :o)

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12 Responses to Nine and a bit months!

  1. Paula says:

    Brava! Huge achievement, and you should coach others in self-discipline and willpower. I could use remedial training in both. If you need more distractions, btw, I recommend vodka – works for me every time; just depends on the day how much vodka it takes to distract me:-) x

    • thepogblog says:

      Thank you Paula, I’m not sure I am quite at the coaching stage yet! I will bear the vodka in mind…although if I had a bottle in the house, I’m not sure I’d be very useful a lot of the time :o)x

  2. 0sgr0 says:

    Had to log in and say congratulations – this is a massive achievement, well done! New of looks fab by the way. :) xx

  3. KatieB says:

    Mega kudos to you. Not only have you continued to overcome your compulsion (was going to say urges, but that sounded wrong!), but you’ve got a cracking hair do to boot! Very impressive.

    • thepogblog says:

      Katie, it’s been people like you who didn’t bat an eyelid (when you would have been perfectly within your rights to do so!) that made a huge difference, so thank you. x

  4. Janette says:

    Well done, that’s awesome news :) xx

  5. lynnbashforth says:

    I’m with Katie – your new do is fab! And huge congrats for a whole 9 months :-) I so admire you particularly for pitching back in here at SC and getting on with it. Plus I’m loving the knitwear! Lxx

    • thepogblog says:

      Thank you Lynn – and for your support when I was at the ‘refusing to take my hat off’ stage :o) There may be a blog post shortly on the crochet bits and bobs – I appear to be doing a class for a few people at lunch time tomorrow! x

  6. Shirley and John says:

    Hi Pog, I’ve got a slightly thin patch on the top which (unless I go down the Elton route) I can do nothing about. But you look fabulous at the moment, and it’s all down to you, and a massive dose of willpower. WELL DONE. If we don’t get a ’12 months and still resisting the temptation’ blog update, we will all be more than miffed!!

    • thepogblog says:

      Your thin patch is just lovely John (and you’re welcome to borrow Bradly should you decided on an alternative Elton route (I’m bit sure he ever had a blonde bob…) Thank you very much. I’ll do my very, very best to make sure that you’re not miffed come December! :o) x

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